|Posted on September 22, 2020 at 2:30 PM|
Be kind to yourself. Let your thoughts love you and be nice to you. You really are a wonderful person, and you are doing your best.
This year has been a beast ... for all of us. I think it's important not to compare our journeys, to allow ourselves grace and a DEEP BREATH.. no matter what we faced. Everything in *our* lives matters to us, and is important to us.
My own personal struggles this year include isolation, loss of income, navigating the virus, and losing my sweet Ben. Losing Ben on top of it all has amplified some of my reactions. I feel *more* alone, and more uncertain for sure. I miss having a partner and I miss him being around.
It takes work, but if I look for blessings and joy this year, I can find it. My job now is to work on my mind; help it to find peace, find joy, find grace. To not be hard on myself and to allow myself to just be....whatever that is on any given day.
Focusing on beautiful things in my life does not mean I am ignoring the pain, hurt and grief of Ben's death. I feel it frequently- whether I want to or not. Crying on the phone to the air-conditioning guy, choking up when I'm weed-wacking the yard, crying into Mia's fur... it's all there.
My goal is to let myself feel that hurt, but then to take baby steps to keep going. To reach out when I feel I can't take it anymore, to share and let myself be loved.
I wish the same for you. Please reach out, please share (with whoever you need to- I'm here if you like!) and let yourself be loved. BY yourself... and by others.
Categories: Peace & Love